Anything Bri

     Thoughts run through my head faster than I can grab a pen to write it down. They say we average between 60,000-80,000 thoughts a day but not me. I average about 100,000+. I say some mean nothing like "Open the door" and "what's that trash bag doing in front of my room door". Its the thoughts that I have about EVERYTHING. Every single day I think about times when I was little, growing up, friends, high school, my absent father, relationships, what ifs, why did I do that, who did I think I was, where am I going, what should I research, did my son do his homework, what's for dinner, I should look up a recipe, I should go to the market, I forgot to text that guy back, I need to write down recipes, work on a cookbook, I need to workout, That guys probably waiting, Im going to feel so good when I lose weight, Oh I need to turn in my homework assignment, what do I want to do with my life, who are my real friends, do I even like him, I should read more, what an...

      It’s hard to connect with people because I have a different vision for myself. I choose to be alone most times, I choose to focus on the projects that I have because no one is going to help me accomplish them. I have grown up with the battle of wanting to focus on success but also wanting to entertain my friends and have fun. I get so distracted when I surround myself with people who are content and I feed into it. There are days that I want to just find a man to marry and live happily ever after. But there are days where, I snap out of it and realize that I want the success for than the man. I don't care about the flashy cars and the flashy homes but I do want one. What that means is, I want to be accomplished enough to afford a nice living and help others get to that and continue. I listen to motivational speakers daily but the problem I struggle with is where to start. How do I distance myself from people who don't think like me when, I work with them, I li...