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Where do I start?

      It’s hard to connect with people because I have a different vision for myself. I choose to be alone most times, I choose to focus on the projects that I have because no one is going to help me accomplish them. I have grown up with the battle of wanting to focus on success but also wanting to entertain my friends and have fun. I get so distracted when I surround myself with people who are content and I feed into it. There are days that I want to just find a man to marry and live happily ever after. But there are days where, I snap out of it and realize that I want the success for than the man. I don't care about the flashy cars and the flashy homes but I do want one. What that means is, I want to be accomplished enough to afford a nice living and help others get to that and continue. I listen to motivational speakers daily but the problem I struggle with is where to start. How do I distance myself from people who don't think like me when, I work with them, I live with them and I am friends with them. Everyone acts interested but then I realize I am just waisting my breath. 

     No one cares and no one is going to help you with what you have going on unless they are benefiting from it. Thats just life. Family, friends, it doesn't matter who. Eventually they are coming back for something because "you owe them". Maybe I should join a club, or a meet up. I want more friends with a similar mindset. I want to have intellectual conversations about goals that I have. I want and crave this will to be successful in making people happy, creating, putting together an event and helping others achieve success which their success is my successful feeling. Where do I start?

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